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Kristen, prompted

March 25, 2020

The most disappointed you have ever been

I can think of plenty of topics for this prompt that are totally not appropriate for a public journal because those disappointments had to do with other people’s behavior or choices.

(Which is probably the case for most of us!)

So, how about we go with one of the times I have felt pretty disappointed with myself?

When I was a middle schooler/high schooler, we participated in a spring piano festival each year. This involved playing two pieces from memory in front of judges and an audience and then getting graded.

Blue was the best grade, red was the second-best, and white was the third.

(The grade was yours, not in comparison with others. If everyone did well, everyone could get blue.)

Kristen as a teenager
This photo is years later, when I was a senior. But it’s the only one I have of me playing piano, so, it is what it is.

For the first few years, I had a nice streak of blue ribbons going.

But one year, right in the middle of a Bach Invention, I looked at the keys, and they just became a confusing sea of black and white. I completely forgot what came next and I had to stop.

I did pull it together enough to get through my second piece, but it wasn’t enough to save me from a red ribbon instead of a blue.

I remember having a terrible time shaking the disappointment in myself. I was supposed to be a blue ribbon festival participant!

(A little pride there, I think. 😉 )

Frustratingly enough, I could play that piece backward and forward any other time. In fact, when I went to bed at night for the next week, the line I’d forgotten kept playing back through my head, and I could even see the printed music in my mind’s eye.

The next year, I had to play another Bach piece, and I was terrified that if I looked at the keyboard, the previous year’s experience would just repeat itself.

So this time, I played the entire thing with my eyes shut.

And it went fine. Blue ribbon!

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  1. Katie says

    March 25, 2020 at 11:09 am

    😄 Great story!

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  2. Profesora H-B says

    March 25, 2020 at 7:33 pm

    I had a similar experience to this when I was about eight years old. It was something Grieg, I think, and I just…forgot how to continue. Luckily it wasn’t a competition, but it’s the last time I really tried to memorize a piano piece. I developed my sight-reading skills instead, which has served me well as a choir accompanist for many years.

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  3. kristin @ going country says

    March 26, 2020 at 6:09 am

    Actually, I think the times I’ve been most disappointed have been when my own behavior towards other people has been less than exemplary. I still feel terrible about times I was not as nice as I should have been to other kids at school or whatever. Like, still feel bad about that girl in fourth grade, though I won’t go into details (that really aren’t THAT bad, just in my head, you know?)

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  4. kristin @ going country says

    March 26, 2020 at 6:12 am

    And since that comment posted . . . my comments on your main site have not been posting this week. No error message, just disappearing into the ether when I submit them. Any thoughts? I’m sure it was a great disappointment (see how I tied that in?) to the world that they couldn’t read about us making a candle from sheep tallow as part of my Frugal Five. 🙂

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    • kristenprompted says

      March 26, 2020 at 4:49 pm

      Ah, I’m so sorry about that. I checked, and you were in the spam filter. There are hundreds of spam comments every day, so it’s too much to look through for false positives every day…but if you ever run into this problem again, just email me and let me know. I’m happy to look when I’m searching for something specific.

      You should be unspammed over there now!

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      • kristin @ going country says

        March 26, 2020 at 7:21 pm

        Thanks. I re-set a bunch of things on my computer this week, too, so maybe that had something to do with it. Thank you for checking. I would hate to miss Friday’s food post . . .

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